I survived burnout just barely

Hi blog readers I have recently read a bunch of posts regarding Work life balance. Starting with people trying to achieve it:

http://501manifesto.org/

http://www.hmans.io/2012/04/23/the-501-developer-manifesto/

Followed with some tips to survive the burnout and detect it:

http://www.codingninja.co.uk/logout-before-you-burnout/

And quite a few who don’t believe is an issue an most of us talking about this are a bunch of whiners.

I’m just going to state this I did not believe in burnout, it happened and I almost did not made out of it. I see there are two types of engineers in big companies those that make programming their lifestyle and those that just see it has a skill they have for work and two earn money. To the second kind I really can’t tell you much about burn out since except for the last 4 months I have never behave that way.

To the first kind listen if you want even though has you read it its probably going to sounds has rubbish since you know better Smile. You are not going to see it coming unless someone lets you know. Second its not about the time you spend in the office but about the time you are in the office but the time you spend connected to the problems that you need to solve. Especially those that drain your energy (In my case solving political or build issues).

So how does burnout feel. You know when you have those days that you look at the screen and no code wants to come out and your mind is like lets go look at reddit for a few more hours is like that but 24/7 and your mind seems to want to stay consuming instead of producing.

So how do you get to that point. First and foremost its your fault. In my personal case I was having confidence issues because I had tried to move to another team in the company and got rejected and decided to try to improve myself. If you feel at work that you have something to prove that is one of the early signs. Second things start getting overcomplicated and you can’t really justify it therefore you try to fix (this is normally not a real problem talk to your boss). Third you feel like you need to be in this job since getting out would be admitting failure at this point I would say that you know that you are in trouble. 4th very close to the end I felt like everyone was doing something wrong around me(Normally I never think that).

So what happened next I stopped functioning got to the point that I could not do anything and decided I had to quit.

So how did I get back on my feet quite a few things:

  • Family and gf support -Can’t say how important this was
  • Changing my lifestyle to focus on financial security
  • Watching tv for 3 whole weeks.
  • Reconsidering my career choices and if being a developer was a good choice.
  • Last but not least getting to work in a place where i was able to work in the part that i enjoyed of the job without all the other ones(This is the one that is hard to find).

    If you are wondering what im doing forward to avoid a repeat I will tackle that in a following post later this week since its rather lenghty. The one thing I would like to mention is that is all in your control burnout has nothing to do with bosses or what not in all honesty people should not have much power over you if they do. The first thing that you need to do is fix your living situation to help avoid burnout. Hopefully this experience helps some people out there. If there is anything you guys want to discuss let me know.

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